I hope I am clarifing my thoughts by this text revision... and that it is easier to read, even with its sometimes tortured syntax. I am attepting here to balance clarity with brevity and frankly I am well pleased with the work so far. Typically in the past I have revised a the text on a complex subject as this one as many as sixteen times, but the crazy rapture I experience in most every variable as it clicks into place assure me I am on the right track no with this propositional equation system.
If not for people there would be no money; no thought of
money or need of money: if not for people. Is money the secret strength of
human beings; or perhaps its prophylactic to peace and justice, keeping our
common planet on its course of degrading and suffering? If this observation
appears banal or even puerile on its face, it does beg the question is money essential to the growth of human
prosperity in this century, having learned all of the lessons and achieved
all of the technological advances of all past time? I suggest that money has
morphed from a 14th century boon to bankers and merchants to become at last the
great glass barrier to everyone fully utilizing their great human potential, to
us each husbanding and best using all natural resources, and distributing what all in more fair, economical and
fuel efficient manners. This way, and never by money trickling down on us from
on high is the cure for poverty, war, terrorism and perhaps in time even
xenophobia.
At our worst we human beings are addicted to money as a
palliative drug beyond its prescribed use. Before I can take this equation
further, it is imperative that I be clear that its primary constituent constant provides that there be no
involuntary loss of capital or property required for its implementation.
Since all enterprises evolve as they have done, whether government sanctioned
or otherwise, even criminal, to any degree: must even out in this system. This
is not to say my equation is immoral, but contemplation may lead to seeing that
each ones sin is only a small part of the whole person. Is not even the worst
sort of sinner the product of her fate; and who might not have been more
fortunate if things had been different?
Next constant
in my war on money may be stated don’t believe anything; but be open to
accept everything. Because nothing in the universe is good or
bad, right or wrong, or true or false in all cases, and the only excluding
factor to be considered is if or not an aspect leads to error.
The great and transformative ideas and acts of human
beings are rarely intensional at the start, rather they are mostly defined and
redefined as time passes. It is the same with the actions of men and women. Next
and the third constant is that persons
always add value. In all economic equations this constant is similarly
thought to be true, be that truth is largely shortchanged when participation
stops flat at a paycheck; the future and
mutually earned residual profit is usurped, and claimed to be dispersed to
middlemen, retailers, suppliers, taxes, etc. as is commonly accounted by the
present system devoted solely to monetary gain.
The final
constant may at first seem implicit, yet it seems hardest to achieve
in dominant culture at last is simple fair play. Every dog has his
day so to speak. Once a minimum provision ensures that every person has some
minimum home and food security, each person will then be free and able to gain
education or training to the full extent of her capacity; and by this: flourish personally and thus the world
will be incrementally improved, one life at a time.
So these four constant propositions underlying this
equational system suggest the calculus that at last begins to connect the
previously described 33 variables describing Peace, and the four part offering
outlining my assertion of a concept called variable universal happiness. The
equation describing the nature of the
chief factor my analysis isolates as the largest single human factor preventing
the attainment of both; termed Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. By these four
constants, factored with the 41 indicated variables, one may derive infinite
combinations of solutions suitable for application not just to our own problems,
but to each person’s unique dilemma with any conceivable problem or combination
of such so preventing each our own peace and happiness.
Henry David Thoreau opined that there is little virtue in the actions of masses of men. When
we each find our own means to peacefully share our planet Earth together the
resulting options too are infinite. As the pollution and the degradation of
earth, sky and waters abate, and are cured by all us humans healing each our
own life’s purpose. The simplicity of
this assertion is only supported by the infinite
complexity and the instinctive
feeling of truth given in every fact
that you, gentile reader have collected in your life; facts of any sort, in any way connected by actual concern for
yourself, your loved ones any life on Earth.
Finally this work concludes expression of my metaphysical
process. It suggests that each person of our world may discover a viable path
herself to have her own peace on earth and good will among all people. This
work expressing infinite solutions to all, and every problem; and never yet
before, been offered in a comprehensive manner, or asserted to be a definitive
system, all-encompassing and without error. The system, while simple in
itself, must be stated in this complexity in order to maintain a noble brevity to
invite investigation.
i.) Voting is for Suckers 5/14/2014 (602) rev 2/14
All voting is a sort of gaming, like
checkers or backgammon, with a slight moral tinge to it, a playing with right
and wrong, with moral questions; and betting naturally accompanies it. The
character of the voters is not staked. I cast my vote, perchance, as I think
right; but I am not vitally concerned that that right should prevail. I am
willing to leave it to the majority. Its obligation, therefore, never exceeds
that of expediency.
Even voting for the right is doing nothing
for it. It is only expressing to men feebly your desire that it should prevail.
A wise man will not leave the right to the mercy of chance, nor wish it to
prevail through the power of the majority. There is but little virtue in the
action of masses of men.
When the majority shall at length vote for
the abolition of slavery, it will be because they are indifferent to slavery,
or because there is but little slavery left to be abolished by their vote. They
will then be the only slaves. Only his vote can hasten the abolition of slavery
who asserts his own freedom by his vote.
On Civil Disobedience by Henry
David Thoreau
These words cut deeply into me as
a boy, and as it has come about in this present century that many of us take
this as a clear path to political transition from our corrupt and inert political leadership to a new,
undefined path to a new way of governance for free people NOT of free people by
an unresponsive bureaucratic 'government.'
Consider this simple example of a
typical election here in the United States and its results:
I am offered a choice of
'Candidate A' and 'Candidate B' on a ballot in common with all other
participating voters.
I choose to cast my vote for
'Candidate A'
With this 'choice' I implicitly
support any vote, speech or action that candidate chooses to take as my proxy, in any action.
By that same 'choice' I also, by
extension equally endorse the same
votes, speech or actions of the 'Candidate B' in the event that that
other candidate prevails in the election.
Clearly my endorsement of a
candidate as a voter is worthless and impotent, but is regarded by office
holder as free justification to do as they like in all cases.
This system lays all true
political power at the door of the two principle political parties, where it is purchased
piecemeal by the interests of individuals and corporations who can afford to
buy their agenda no matter how contrary to individual's interests nationally.
Our elected political officeholders
are pigs at a trough with no regard for our interests.
Even the Supreme Court of the
present Chief Justice John Roberts' regime rules as if it has been bought and
paid for and serves only dishonest ends; clearly not those of the people whose
interest they were ostensibly appointed
to protect.
Even judicial appointments result
from the actions and arrangements of the primary political parties; as chips in
their power game that they hold to be two opposing sides, but this is not at
all clear to be true.
This is merely my analysis of our
present government, the prescription of its change and improvement is the
result described by my entire equation; as and as described in the subsequent posts
on this work. But the result of the mass public withdrawal from participating
in voting for national candidates will be that the Emperor will be shown to
wear no clothes!
ii.)Profit (Micro)
Requires Consideration 5/17/2014 (185) rev
2/14
"If you are describing any
occurrence... make two or more distinct reports at different times... We
discriminate at first only a few features, and we need to reconsider our
experience from many points of view and in various moods in order to perceive
the whole."
Henry David Thoreau
Micro economic: aspects
with merit
As a business owner,
tradesperson, creator, marketer or any sort of vendor, the decisions and
actions you choose to employ to operate day to day, and long term may be
referred to as micro economic aspects. This designation because your decisions
and actions largely affect your own business alone for the most part.
Also with
responsibility for one’s own business there includes the liability for the
consequences of our decisions and actions. On a micro level our business is
restrained from encroaching onto others properties, or legal prerogatives by
the threat of those others taking recourse under the law. Thus business
operators at a micro level must take every outside interaction under careful
consideration because it can eat away scarce profit, if not risk fiscal
disaster.
iii.)Profit (Macro) Defeats Consideration 5/21/2014 (513) rev 2/15
"My books I'd fain cast
off, I cannot read
'Twixt every page (for) my
thoughts go stray (to) at large
Down in the meadow, where is (found)
richer feed,
And (that) will not mind to hit
their (his thought’s) proper target."
The Summer Rain, st. 1
(1842) Henry David Thoreau
When men decide it is
profitable to take a longer, macro view, of economic reasoning and consider
economic activity as an aggregate of the profit and loss within a given
economy, or of many distinct economies; he must relinquish the necessary
requirements of the existent micro operation of all persons, businesses,
industries, established contracts, and networks, and essential processes of
operation presently supporting the profitability each.
The abstract goal of
the study, and then the affecting of existing economies by taking a macro
approach within and/or across an economy; is ostensibly to improve conditions
for everyone by increasing the efficiencies and also by this, the total
activity and profitability, generally, within the economies. This is said to be
achieved by increasing efficiency, reducing or eliminating redundancy, and
eliminating those non-productive aspects wherever they are targeted. This is
supposed, and represented as beneficial to everyone, also termed ‘trickle down,’ and that is solely an
intentionally deceptive macro-economic concept.
Objective analysis of the actual results of macro-economic planning,
and its demonstrated results in any economy concerned, proves only that its
product is merely statistical justification for robbing workers, businesses,
supply networks and investors of their present employment, their customers, and
their profits, in order to redistribute
this wealth and property to increasingly narrow and wealthy interests.
In fact this macro view
towards increasing efficiencies and max profitability within an economy proves
at last to require us to disregard
all useful established micro-economic practices, especially encluding honest
care, pride of workmanship, attention to the best interest of customers, employees, and planning for
the future growth and viability of individual entities and employment within the
economy. These practices thus become superseded by the narrow interests of creating profits for those who have political power and the financial resources
to affect the latter, and to acquire the former in changing the status quo
to the favor of both. This with no regard for the persons who suppose that they
themself grant that political power by
voting, and whose labor created the
wealth held now by others that disregard them entirely.
It would be a mistake
to believe that the wealthy ‘interests
and persons,’ who profit by this, and by the politicians they have bought
with their wealth, are entirely nefarious in their intent or their actions. Instead
they seem more likely to be misguided by a short sighted perception of the
place of profit (money) in the hierarchy of values; and who should benefit.
What good intentions are believed by, or expressed by their media faces to be
the benefits derived from macro-economic actions, in actual widespread
institution of all such, overestimates that utility in fact; and especially
fails to attend to the mitigation of the unintended difficulties that those
actions create.
iv.) Rolling Wheel: Out of Control? or Going the Right Way? 5/22/2014 (715) rev 2/15
"Is a
democracy, such as we know it, the last improvement possible in government? Is
it not possible to take a step further towards recognizing and organizing the
rights of man? There will never be a really free and enlightened State until
the State comes to recognize the individual as a higher and independent power,
from which all its own power and authority are derived, and treats him
accordingly. I please myself with imagining a State at least which can afford
to be just to all men, and to treat the individual with respect as a neighbor;
which even would not think it inconsistent with its own repose if a few were to
live aloof from it, not meddling with it, nor embraced by it, who fulfilled all
the duties of neighbors and fellow-men. A State which bore this kind of fruit,
and suffered it to drop off as fast as it ripened, would prepare the way for a
still more perfect and glorious State, which also I have imagined, but (have)
not yet anywhere seen."
Henry David
Thoreau from On Civil Disobedience
(1849)
One
important aspect of any equation is your decision about whether it is useful,
and if the problem it purports to address is important to you at all. The aim
of my equation expressed in this system is essentially to encourage my readers
to perhaps fill in any gaps that exist in their thought process, that may
prevent connecting numerous problems around the world, nationally, and even in
your own life to a common source of all these problems.
All of
these problems are rooted in deficits in individual human beings' perceptions
of objects; including money, government, education and responsibility. Archaic
structures of government are based on fallacious conceptions concerning the
benefit of collective actions based on traditional democratic principles.
Democracy has plainly proven itself to be a clumsy, wolf in sheep’s clothing, perhaps once it was the very best human
beings could manage to govern themself, even while always acknowledging its
shortcomings. Today democracy is toxic and even to the wealthy persons who
purchase political power and even judicial decisions. In this analysis the
decisions handed down so far by the present Chief Justice John Roberts led Supreme
Court of the United States have so aggravated the disparity between rich and
poor, that these may be termed as criminal by their apparent brazen
redistribution of wealth and thus political
influence to an increasingly narrow cohort of corporate interests and wealthy
individuals: whose interests are plainly regarded as taking precedence over
those of less privileged persons.
The
legislature is not less culpable in this drastic transfer of wealth over the
past decades. The polarization of interest by the two dominant political
parties, aggravated by the advent of the 24 hour news cycle that leads
persons with little time to attempt to effectively understand all of the important
issues that affect them. Most consume one sided newscasts as if it were a brand
of beer; always reinforcing static perceptions, because no opposing
perspectives ever even come to their notice. Again these interactions of
legislators and news media and corporate and wealthy interests act to divide
and conquer the population who are oppressed by deficits of both money and
time, and have little ability to know or research the ‘information’ reported to them by media sources.
As for
the executive function of government, there is little of substance that it can
accomplish effectively in light of the stubborn gridlock that has ground
governance to a mere giveaway to the privileged contributors to public office
holders.
The
systems conclusions were arrived at by aggregating a lifetimes observation of
and analysis of world and national events. I do not assert any ultimate ‘truth’ in these observations; however I do assert that they cannot be
shown to be in error. We seem to be today at the cusp of real change in our
society, and technological advances in communications and present availability of access to data at affordable costs make change
not just possible, but certain. However it is not phones and computers that
make it inevitable, it is only the intent and self-education of individual
persons that in the end will prevail.
v.) Compromise
= Governance -a spring, or a pulley, or a rope, or a crank 5/23/2014 (805) rev 2/15
“
If…injustice is part of the necessary friction of the machine of
government, let it go, let it go; perchance it (the friction) will wear (it)
smooth — certainly the machine will wear out. If the injustice has a spring, or
a pulley, or a rope, or a crank, exclusively for itself, then perhaps you may
consider whether the remedy (your trouble & effort to change it) will not
be worse than the evil (the injustice), but if it is of such a nature that it
requires you to be the agent of injustice to another, then, I say, break the
law. Let your life be a counter friction to stop the machine. What I have to do
is to see, at any rate, that I do not lend myself to the wrong which I
condemn.”
Henry David Thoreau from On Civil Disobedience (1849)
Our present political system of
operating our government is completely broken. So thus, irrationally and intentionally polarized
are much of the population who are induced to support prominent political parties
controlling our government, distinct from but in cahoots with the elected
office holders and the correspondingly distinctly polarized news media; that compromise cannot even be allowed to appear
to exist. Any such function, of proposed agreement by office holders of
either party with their opposite number is immediately broadcast by the
respective lap dog media platforms, these claiming ‘betrayal of principle’ and
‘unworthiness for re-election.’
The
caliber of candidates for higher office today in the United States is so poor,
and self-aware of this fact, that these creatures are virtually interchangeable
once elected, so they do not dare attempt any action except bend to the winds
that may blow from polls of their donors and as bid by media reportage.
This
state of events can hardly be termed government at all; from its undeniable
results plainly observable in the acts of our elected office holders at present,
and rooted directly back to the Ronald Reagan administration. Rather than a
functional government, we are experiencing a systematic redistribution of the
savings, labor and even homes and possessions of American citizens, and also
those of all others living here, who are of only moderate income levels, to an
increasingly narrow group if wealthy persons, their minions, and various
corporate, government and media interests. This is being perpetrated brazenly by
the open purchasing of power by the proverbial ‘1%,’ acting thus as if they are
buying elections on eBay, and also buying up personal control of entire media
platforms as if they are bush league sports franchises.
So, news
cycle to news cycle, election cycle to primaries to election cycle, we have
gone about our lives knowing something is badly wrong, but not quite able to
see it, or actually believe what is happening to us all. International treaties
send jobs and even the capital equipment that workers here once operated, to
overseas. And so called ‘good jobs’
are almost completely gone from manufacturing, leaving at best the pursuit of medical, government, data services and
the arts for most persons as the only ways to earn a decent level of income. So
thus institutional higher education, health insurance, a home and a family are
largely unattainable for anyone who cannot get financial help from their family
or elsewhere. Even military combat veterans get snot tissue treatment by a
corrupt Congress that cares only for the money that gives them power and
advantage.
Present governance
= swindle, that is my analysis based on the
result of the equation I am presenting in this system. I am relating great
complexity here, even broken down to bite sized chunks. I want to emphasize
strongly that the state we are in is mainly our
own fault in perpetuating a long known and acknowledged error; in living
our lives oblivious of the many factors: political and economic. These allow
others to annually mow hay from out of each
our distraction. It is in the incredible escalation of greed and disregard by
us and for our fellow persons that has attracted these wealthy and powerful pigs to the trough. Dick Cheney, Carl
Rove, Mr. Burns, each while certainly evil in intent, cannot be seen as capable
of engineering this great swindle of money and power by design. Life does not
happen that way, only thus in comic books. Look into and mirror, and thus see
the person who can change this economic and class based tyranny.
I offer
this equation as a tool to put all the things you already know onto a framework
that will give you a perspective not only of how we got to this sad economic
and political state; but how we can win back our nation by peaceful means.
vi.) Service of Random
Kindness 5/26/2014 (639) revised
2/15
"The fate of the country does not
depend on how you vote at the polls — the worst man is as strong as the best at
that game; it does not depend on what kind of paper you drop into the
ballot-box once a year, but on what kind of man (person) you drop from your
chamber into the street every morning. "
Henry David Thoreau -from 'Slavery in Massachusetts' (1854)
The most important
thing in my life has proven to be giving my service to other people. All of my
ideas and intentions have self-serving aspects I admit, but this does not
diminish the good that incorporating service and kindness to others has done
for me, as much as for those I mean to serve. I became a Buddhist monk ‘in fact,’ that is I took my 6 vows and have
faithfully kept them for 25 years. I took this path as a means of learning,
concentrating, observing, listening to
find out, at the time I had no idea what. That unknown became so attractive
that an ordinary life, job, wife, or family became completely out of the
question for me. Further, what comfort or rewards these offered have not been
defeated for me by the responsibilities I forswore along with them in that time
in my own life.
In making the decision
to accept the responsibility of a family, employment and every aspect these, brings
this; the chief causality of each person is the loss of their invaluable time.
Pinched for that time, it is thus so often that kindness is the first thing
that that we abandon, for giving our time to another is often the kindest thing
that we can possibly do for them. We feel
that money becomes the same thing as time, because we sell so much of our
precious time for money, but then fail to realize that we gladly give much more
money to have a fraction of our time back.
It is now impossible
for me to separate responsibility from service to others. I can’t believe that
all of the help and the love others have given me throughout my life was quid
pro quo due to me from my actions or my own personality; or thus accounted to
be fully deserved at all. In fact it is clear that I am selfish and
self-serving in the bulk of my decisions and actions. That said, still I can
say that each kindness I have received, eventually I have recognized as such,
even when it didn’t always seem as such in the moment. So in time I became able
to recognize the suffering in other persons who I meet; and come to recognize
it as my own. In this light it becomes natural to spare a moment to be with a
person who wants comfort, as so many have done for me in my own life.
In our culture of ‘no time to spare’ we have come to view
helping others as a deduction from our paycheck, or a dollar handed out the
window to a proud veteran , or other unhappy person standing roadside. Don’t mistake kindness for a hurried handout;
that is welcome do doubt, but beyond a bite to eat many persons really need a
kind ear to pour out their suffering, for that is truly different from talking out
alone, into the air. And remember most, that in listening to the suffering of
others, that you cannot solve their problems for them, really, but in listening
to them it is possible for one to work it through for themself. Eventually a
solution of their own may present itself to them. We can never really know the
result of the kindness we do for others, and maybe it is best that way.
vii) Decisions Are Made
One and One and One and One Each Her Own (413) Revised 2/16
"I am a parcel of vain striving tied
by a chance bond together.”
Henry David Thoreau -from
poem Sic Vita, st. 1 (1841)
Tip O’Neil famously
observed that “all politics are local.”
This from a far past era when politicians yet felt some responsibility to their
constituents; and often even still worked to reach reasonable compromise, in
service of course, to the interests of home districts primarily, and after to
the moneyed interests, only tangentially.
I observe today that
such ‘honest graft’ is of the far
past decades, and that elected principal office holders now serve only their
parties, who endorse them to hapless participating voters; and to the various, very
interested financiers of their campaigns, these that they bought with cash
money from branded media vendors that bark for one of the two respective
parties in control. Using the control of access to the source of most news
content, government spokespeople; media vendors are made the lapdogs of the
political parties and their ‘campaign
contributors’ who buy aim for both at once. Sweeping national legislation
is sold remarkably cheaply to them, and commonly the minions of these indicated money dispensers
are even allowed to write it themselves for their master’s profit; in time
resulting directly the spiraling downfall of our national economy, debasing any
employment and security of all other persons.
We are fed confusion by
a 24 hour news-cycle composed chiefly of one to three minute bites of the apple
representing the knowledge of good and evil done to us in our governance by our
corrupt and deliberately ineffectual government. Clearly the result is this: all
politics are now individual.
Activism is personal,
and solutions are nowhere to be found in collective actions or decisions taken
within the status quo. Linguistic tactics used including such terms as ‘race,’ ‘injustice,’ ‘environment,’
‘freedom fries,’ 'Benghazi' etc. are distortions cynically used to divide
and prevent us from understanding the misdirection, and into distraction,
emotionalism and fear where the very opposites, true perception and thus
courage are called for, and our elected officials are sworn to uphold as much. We are controlled, and pacified by the
difficulty and confusion built into our lives, and that saps what energy we
have to labor to dispel it ourself, on top of all the of responsibilities me
bear of ‘earning our own living.’
Quoting the bard: “war
is over if you want it.”
viii) War With
Distraction//Peace With Diffusion part 1 ( Shaman Process) 5/29/2014 (340) revised 2/16
"The Indian...stands free and
unconstrained in Nature, is her inhabitant and not her guest, and wears her
easily and gracefully. But the civilized man has the habits of the house. His
house is a prison."
Henry David Thoreau -April 26, 1841
Tonight I hit a common
snag, that of tackling a variable that is plainly simple in my own perception,
but linguistically it offers to balloon into greater complexity of itself, that
is take on itself a greater number of component variables contained in it, than
the system equation it is a part of contains as a whole. Metaphysically this
tends to defeat my purpose, because to express this in spoken or written
language requires too much exposition to be useful in that purpose.
As I began tonight, I
realized I needed an outline to work from, which in my hour evolved thus far:
Fortunately for this
project, virtually everyone is familiar with the subject of each part detailed
in the outlines above; enough to forgo defining each of these component parts
of this variable under examination. As the aim of this system is to demonstrate
the distraction that has evolved in dividing the relations, responsibilities and clear intentions of the players in
our political system, from this clear relation to government, and so from us persons bearing its yoke.
The above simple
equation describing aspects of distraction clearly fleshes out the total of
these causes to be somewhere just south of infinity; if one were fool enough to
go that way. Every single reader can easily double the complexity above
accounting their own life, in well below an hour and with no real effort. So I
say to you why bother with this distraction? How far does it pay, in a
metaphysical pursuit or as a system of archaic governance, and accounting its
nefarious and systematic robbery thereby? For myself I have better use of my
attention than to detail now those dismal paragraphs any further.
ix) War With
Distraction/Peace With Diffusion Part 2 5/29/2014 (421) revised 2/16
"I came into this
world, not chiefly to make this a good place to live in, but to live in it, be
it good or bad. They who know of no
purer sources of truth, who have traced up its stream no higher, stand, and
wisely stand, by the Bible and the Constitution, and drink at it there with
reverence and humility; but they who behold where it comes trickling into this
lake or that pool, gird up their loins once more, and continue their pilgrimage
toward its fountain-head. "
Henry David Thoreau from On Civil Disobedience (1849)
Of course anything you
read on line is iffy at best; some things are true and some are not. I put a
lot of work finding the truth about my future wife I met on Facebook and who
has lived in Lagos Nigeria.
Leaving behind a pile
of bits of paper on the table I made these two diagrams contrasting common
elements of distraction with those of diffusion as they are useful to consider
in this case. If you can decipher my hand I think my point is made clearly,
both in the labels and the form I present them in this variable. Only the two
terms and the labels floating around them express the dharma aspect in this
part of the equation; I will wager that everyone who reads this will instantly
understand many things about each component
label, and each person will have her own interpretation of how these
connect within her own world view and present reality.
This is ultimately why
this brand of distraction is so deep in our culture, and exists each of our own
lives. The variations of these numerous subjective aspect values in all of
these examples and countless others are constantly in flux. For this reason I
don't believe in villains or in heroes as the cause of the vast majority of the
suffering each person experiences. At worst or perhaps at best, the things we
do to correct are mainly our best guess at going forward without error.
Subjectively any combination of these aspects that we determine as true or
false is easy enough to decide on with consideration for our own intent or our
own desire. But objectively all equations reveal their errors plainly. The
amount of exposition we tell ourself or tell others to justify our equational
deviation that will show painfully no matter how we may wish to ignore our
error.
x.) Every One Has Their Thoughts And Desires 6/2/2014 (639) revised 2/16
"It is a great art to saunter"
Henry David Thoreau - April 26, 1841
This above is an
obvious truth, and its practical amplification by the advent of technology and
affordable world-wide communications, goes far to support my contention that democracy has become undesirable and
inadequate to serve our needs in this century, and going forward its sole function has become to redistribute
the money, possessions and precious time of the mass of citizens for the
profit of those with wealth and the intent
to buy even more power and influence with that wealth.
In continuing to cling
fast to the beloved illusion of an American democracy now archaic; we cannot
see it is a myth, and that now it is in fact, the chief agent of our national
economic decline. With cold examination free of prejudice, it may be seen
clearly that parental government is
the chief systemic cause of so much suffering to all Americans, alike.
Advocates for our present political decision makers and in explanation of their
decisions, defend their own inability to imagine, let alone believe anything may
be superior to the status quo; and let me immediately admit: that my only idea in
terms of this system that is now expressed by this system. Simply put, I
advocate that we shall all become better
educated in every day that passes: and that everyone should immediately,
and at last, feel okay with every aspect
and each one free to her own life.
The terrible recent
misogynistic murder spree by a deranged boy who believed the crap that he learned in his life of sterile media content consumed,
did not at last comport to a very desirable life for himself. At his end, even though he felt as if he had
done all that media had told him to do, so that chicks would go for him; but
regrettably at last, all of that nonsense was just a wash for him. It is only
aggravating the broad issue to feel punitive towards a deranged child badly
misbehaving, simply because that one legally got hold a loaded gun, just as any
other criminal may do, and will do to suit her purpose. I can’t think of a
thing to justify this behavior, certainly nothing to excuse this person’s crime.
And so now this one is dead too, as I reckon they all end up lately.
Why do we not realize
such as these hopeless killers are spawned
in desperation, not in a vacuum. They are born into in the clutches of
unfiltered media and without the rudder of parental care, and without even
receiving such of loving mentoring, as is the responsibility we all bear
towards one another. The latest 'news'
item at reference here proves that money
is not a total cure for, nor is poverty the logical cause of suffering; to me
at least, don't 'ya think?
Hey look! This is a great spot to add penal service, and punitive judicial
sentencing as revenue for the government we have won by cutting tax rates
of those persons most blessed with dough; and even after all the past decades
waiting, believing the necessary tax giveaways to the wealthy and tricky too surely
at last one day trickle down. Down at last onto the families swimming, swimming
around under their mortgaged homes. Persons who are 'informed' by media sources
that they are themself poor poor victims, and who as such may think they will
drown dead; if they were to pay more to keep the house, keep it by struggling
and suffering poverty (not consuming), because it is said to cost (in here
commonly represented as 'debt') more than it is worth; the same home that the
same family had lately loved and wanted so much themselves.
xi.) We Can No Longer
Pretend to Know What is in Play 6/4/2014 (501) revised
2/16
"I saw that the
State was half-witted, that it was timid as a lone woman with her silver
spoons, and that it did not know its friends from its foes, and I lost all my
remaining respect for it, and pitied it."
Henry David Thoreau from On Civil Disobedience (1849)
At some point in
history government bureaucrats confidently issued collected facts and figures
to define most aspects of national production and trade in commodities and
manufactured products, and could even account for a reliable census, and even
to a degree, control immigration to this country. Thus making aggregate, the figures broadly
collected for an attempt to make some forward predictions, to be used in
central planning to benefit industry, and forecast the required infrastructure
to benefit business and employment. Yes
there was a time in history where this was perhaps feasible, if of course, it
always accompanied shameless profiteering by the wealthy, and the grafting
public office holders. No one pretends to really believes that such is remotely
useful today as carried out by persons of like ilk; in terms of similarly meaningful
statistics leading to any real national benefit; as the drain of middle class
prosperity has become a grim joke to persons working away with little prospect
for prosperity.
The very concept of
maximum profitability (Max/Prof) has undermined the countless intangible assets
of all companies, professions and commodities and the traditional markets they
have inhabited or always until now supported. This makes us minnows swimming,
working, waiting to be swallowed up by the next big fish who buys and sells our
livelihood for a fast buck in their pocket.
Resulting thus in
effect, that no one can say with certainty; anything about anything, beyond the
narrow sphere of aspects directly related to her own personal life. Consider
the part your mechanic needs to repair your trusty old car. It lies far away,
waiting to come overnight, if it can be located at all. If it does come, it is
as likely as not to be, not quite right, or else some other repair may also be
needed to, at last, get you on the road again. This expansion of the
chronological aspect of an automobile repair is reflected by the decline of the
auto and auto parts industry indicative mainly, of the steep decline in the
income of former customers for fleets of new cars each year among those formerly called ‘workers’ but who are
now valued only as consumers.
Shifting of middle
class savings, from bank accounts into gun collections has caused mass chaos
about every aspect of our society. Money, patriotism, family,
self-preservation, mass murder, health care delivery, taxation without real
representation, anger, sorrow; and at last, the end of our own functional self-governance,
and the murder of old ideas of American democracy. And just try to find most indie comic books
for sale currently in a typical American local comic shop (lcs).
xii.) There Is No
Legislating Out Of The Status Quo 6/5/2014 (400) revised
2/16
"All men recognize
the right of revolution; that is, the right to refuse allegiance to, and to
resist, the government, when its tyranny or its inefficiency are great and
unendurable. But almost all say that such is not the case now. But such was the
case, they think, in the Revolution of '75.
If one were to tell me that this was a bad
government because it taxed certain foreign commodities brought to its ports,
it is most probable that I should not make an ado about it, for I can do
without them.
All machines have their
friction; and possibly this does enough good to counterbalance the evil. At any
rate, it is a great evil to make a stir about it. But when the friction comes
to have its machine, and oppression and robbery are organized, I say, let us
not have such a machine any longer. "
Henry David Thoreau from On Civil Disobedience (1849)
We are here in the
present moment together, ruled by a degenerate group posing as patriots and
concerned with the public good; while every action they take publicly brands
them as criminals in intent and in action. Pigs at the trough of our ever
diminishing prosperity, only even looking up briefly, at times of re-election; just
to urge reform by your voting their own
opponents out of power by diligently voting voting voting. "We will bring
change," "the 'our' party has only your interests in our
hearts," etc. etc. etc. That in fact, you should register and always vote
is the only aspect universally agreed between them across the board by every
participant in political cell groups is a telling key to unlock the truth of
their crooked game.
It is a cynical shell game
they play, sleight-of-hand where we grab
for the 'pea' of reform under the shell of false promises that never come
to pass. The problems and obstacles preventing any prayer of changing the gravy
train of our own elected public office holders? I explore many such aspects in
the diagram below, in which every variable is sadly, understood too well by most anyone reading into this system. This
illustration is just a handy tool collecting many into one meme; but also each
of you can add a few tentacles I have neglected here I betcha .
xiii.) Static
Perception Arrested Thought/ Impediments to Progress (394) revised 2/16
"My work consists
of two parts: the one presented here plus all that I have not written. And it
is precisely this second part that is the important one."
Ludwig Wittgenstein
An individual aspect
such as this is difficult to describe sensibly, so I will just rely on the
title of this equation to express the major part of my meaning. I think the
best I can describe my thesis of this phrase is this: everything is in a constant
state of change, but often we just cannot notice it.
This is human, and,
only natural in light of the complexity of every person’s life and of all its
concerns, day to day. We go on in a comfortable routine most of our lives,
pausing in confusion when our old habits no longer serve us as they once did.
We don’t see ourselves this way of course, but can see the confusion plainly enough
in others around us. A parent seems not to realize that we are now adults, and
insist upon patronizing us. Friends may go on attached to old ways that we now
have lost interest in doing; those wedding bells are breaking up this old gang
of mine.
These changes are
rooted in each our individual chronological needs and desires. This makes a
rich tapestry of lives lived well, but many
choose to ignore change, in favor of clinging
to a comfortable simplicity we may weave into a cocoon to shield us from ambiguous uncertainty brought on by
continuous interactions with others.
This aspect of human nature is, by itself a root of tremendous suffering in
everyone’s life to some degree. We may cling to certain T.V. programs, sports teams, unhappy employment, or
assign the definition our own permitted amount of liberty to some ineffective
political cell-group and its office holders; because we have always hoped that these
are capable of providing a seeming security in this uncertain world, and we
suppose we have no time to do this for ourself.
The expression of this
metaphysical observation aims to transcend the function of language, the
description I have written here above would have little weight of meaning,
except for the fact that you the reader have, to some extent, encountered the
truth of my assertion as a fact of your own life.
xiv.) Actual May Be
(only) Perception 6/7/2014 (195) revised
2/15
"It takes an extraordinary intelligence
to contemplate the obvious."
Alfred North Whitehead
In the early 1980s I
realized that I was only really able to observe, understand and make meaningful
artworks by seeing my subjects with multiple perspectives. Otherwise the result
of my work shows only a partial aspect, and unless this is my intention in
making a work, or it is made for a commercial purpose, such work has little
satisfaction for me.
If we could read one
another’s minds, perhaps we could completely convey our ideas and our meanings
crystal clearly to another person and without misunderstandings. But for the
most part we have only language to communicate, and even to think with by
ourselves; so in some ways every thought, and every expression deviates in some
way from our intension. So in attempting to embroider with details in an attempt
to be specific requires exposition, whether speaking or in written language;
and exposition requires an increased chronological element to express, and this
factor demands attention, concentration, and often great energy to attempt to
know the result of any given extended, complex use of language.
xv.) Money Went ‘Round
The Bend 6/10/2014 (694) revised 2/16
"Never
give a sucker an even break"
William Claude Fields (film title)
Money can be
simple and useful to anyone. Money has a price like nearly everything in this
country has; generally most all working people pay that price with their own precious
time. The time we work for a paycheck, the effort we give, the forgoing of
other desired activities or repose. Also we may pay for our money with objects
we create or have acquired to later exchange for cash money. These things and
others are innocuous aspects of money that we can see and even trust, but if
making money seems to us to be the root constituting all of the parameters of
our life here on earth, the core of our worthiness and our chief defense
against all adversity.
Money always
transcends being only a simple tool supporting basic purposes of commerce as it
masses in the control of any individual or group. Its aspect changes in certain
fundamental ways, in its own nature, this because its uses change both in
purpose and velocity , according to infinite perspectives of those who control
it. A bank, a large business interest, a corporation, a university, a hospital,
a church, a philanthropist, a money market manager, a stock or commodities
trader; each of these has different perspectives on raising and using huge
amounts of money, and the results of each constitutes a separate and distinct
nature of the affect that money has and also even more important what that
nature will be in the future.
As a result of
the oligarchic acquisition of so many brand name companies in the food, retail,
entertainment industries, as well as oil, commodities, and transportation into
the hands of a few big corporations that are controlled by fewer and fewer very
wealthy individuals. Disappointing is that we everyone have lost sight of the
origin of these huge fortunes, and the ones who now control them conceive that they alone have earned the fruits of a
million others’ labor and consumption as the natural order rewarding their
virtue and acumen; an commonly we too rest assured of that by our dedication to property rights and democratic values.
Although thus,
because money has 'gone ‘round the bend' and out of our sight, it is natural to
forget since we no longer see it, or think about it as an object at all of our
common creation, which it most certainly
is at the level of velocity that
money is moving away from us. When this nation was truly prosperous, the
functioning governance taxed those gains as much as 90%, to the howls of the
extremely wealthy, but to the huge benefit to the middle classes who had such a
growth in their standard of living that new, and constantly expanding sources
of new fortunes were to be discovered.
In past times
those hated and reviled taxes built roads bridges, dams’, culverts, flood
prevention projects, national parks and capital projects in 50 states, fleets
of vehicles and equipment; and also education and employment for millions of
ourselves and our neighbors. I’m not suggesting that the asshole Ronald Reagan
and his ideological progeny were not patriotic or honestly informed in their
well-meaning belief in their own doctrines to determine our own economic and national
governance; but judged by their resulting devastation to our national economy
it is clear that crowd had, and still exhibits little understanding of the trouble
they cause by putting ideology and bigotry at the very front of their
theoretical political equation of governance, where they should not have
been at all. To be complete and more balanced in my analysis, that Clinton guy
was equally destructive in his trade treaties and arrogant hail-fellow
-well-met distractions; but I like the Obama, he is Presidential and
reasonable, this is the way an executive honestly and effectively functions. Do
not take these analytical assessments as partisan endorsements, for I maintain
that all political cell affiliations are to be despised, and advocate that seeing
only the actions and the results of men and woman in elected office without a
narrow partisan filter.
xvi.) Weeping and Gnashing of teeth 6/13/2014 (548) revised 2/15
“1 And Jesus answered and spake unto
them again by parables, and said,
2 The kingdom of heaven is like unto a
certain king, which made a marriage for his son,
3 And sent forth his servants to call
them that were bidden to the wedding: and they would not come.
4 Again, he sent forth other servants,
saying, Tell them which are bidden, Behold, I have prepared my dinner: my oxen
and my fatlings are killed, and all things are ready: come unto the marriage.
5 But they made light of it, and went their
ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise:
6 And the remnant took his servants, and
entreated them spitefully, and slew them.
7 But when the king heard thereof, he
was wroth: and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and
burned up their city.
8 Then saith he to his servants, the
wedding is ready, but they which were bidden were not worthy.
9 Go ye therefore into the highways, and
as many as ye shall find, bid to the marriage.
10 So those servants went out into the
highways, and gathered together all as many as they found, both bad and good:
and the wedding was furnished with guests.
11 And when the king came in to see the
guests, he saw there a man which had not on a wedding garment:
12 And he saith unto him, Friend, how camest
thou in hither not having a wedding garment? And he was speechless.
13 Then said the king to the servants, Bind
him hand and foot, and take him away, and cast him
into outer darkness; there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.
14 For many are called, but few are chosen.”
Jesus of Nazareth - Matthew 22; 1-14
That great New
Testament economist/philosopher Jesus points out in this parable that life is
good for everyone, but also whether you are a king, or a guy off the street
invited to a wedding party, shit happens, so we have to just deal with it and
keep going. We are alive only in the present moment and in a very real sense
each moment is an eternity that we cannot escape. How we chose to regard the
moment we find ourselves in, is largely indicative of how we are likely to feel about each of our
lives’ moments. Our mere determination that the present moment is “good” or
‘bad,’ is a perspective that affects every aspect of our fears, our
unhappiness, even our satisfaction satisfaction with the things life brings us.
By attempting to always
assure our desired outcomes prevail, the opposites we strive to defeat only
grow in resistance and gain ever more power over us. For example it is to be
observed that in present governance the conservative faction seeks to legislate
the parameters of future legislation; thus hoping to exclude arbitrary issues
they despise. Believing in, and instigating such legislation certainly assures
the worst possible outcome, and we each would find the results much better if
they would honestly negotiate those outcomes when they arise. Instead these cowardly acts, constantly done to
each of us by our legislators, find us collectively weeping and gnashing our
teeth.
xvii.) A distortion of
every nature; is at the base of every equation 6/24/2014 (339)
"Every poet has
trembled on the verge of Science.
If you are describing
any occurrence... make two or more distinct reports at different times... We
discriminate at first only a few features, and we need to reconsider our
experience from many points of view and in various moods in order to perceive
the whole."
Henry
David Thoreau Quotes from Journals (1838-1859)
Here the title is the
whole essence of this variable proposition I think. If it suggests a certainty
to you; then it’s all good. If you have read very far in this blog, but still
are not comfortable with how the above title serves this function, don’t worry,
this bit here just boosts all of the other, sister variables.
dichotomies of distortions
In conventional thought
we depend heavily of concepts true and false, good and bad, wrong and right;
and applying them as labels onto people, ideas, objects, and all sorts of
aspects of our lives. We want these to simplify our life. But we see that
persons, and also any other collective interests that we are fond of, have ever
changing natures to them; some that may even thus give us pleasure. We each
have a capacity, for our sphere containing our comfortable ambiguity, and of
course may vary from person to person.
don’t let the sound of your own wheels
It is only in
disregarding these distortions, that we make serious errors that divert and
change our actions, preventing us from having our intended result. When we are
convinced of the permanence of anything on Gods good earth, it is just another
inevitable error coming sure. Understand that errors are frequent in everyone’s
lives, and for the most part they have little effect, and in fact sometimes
even turn out for the best.
Remember that nothing
is ever true or false in all cases, and when one attempts to assert a truth to
be ‘eternal,’ or ‘natural;’ she arrives at nonsense.
xviii.) All Problems
integrated, reduced, and reconstructed 8/29/2014 (599) revised
2/16
"Unjust
laws exist; shall we be content to obey them, or shall we endeavor to amend
them, and obey them until we have succeeded, or shall we transgress them at
once? Men generally, under such a government as this, think that they ought to
wait until they have persuaded the majority to alter them. They think that, if
they should resist, the remedy would be worse than the evil. But it is the
fault of the government itself that the remedy is worse than the evil. It makes
it worse. Why is it not more apt to anticipate and provide for reform? Why does
it not cherish its wise minority? Why does it cry and resist before it is hurt?
Why does it not encourage its citizens to be on the alert to point out its
faults, and do better than it would have them?
Why does it always crucify Christ, and excommunicate Copernicus and
Luther, and pronounce Washington and Franklin rebels?"
Henry David Thoreau On Civil Disobedience (1849)
Metamorphosis
I find very
often, that the system I am presenting on does not quite fit the nature that I
want to prevail in it. It needs to be worn in a bit and rethought, and other
aspects in proximity may have to change as well for it to be a good fit. Remember that it is never just one thing that defeats you, or just one thing
that drives you forward. You always have a choice; to pursue a single narrow,
dedicated course is not really better than another more broad interest, and we
only know looking back, what actually was the result of our intent.
The problem is
the bigness
When our plans are born
of a budget, and a goal to profit as a main consideration; then I say that the
result is as likely to be an albatross as a attainment. This is an inherent
drawback, inevitable in any sort of collaboration, even with oneself. The real
problem is the bigness of the project’s aspect nature cuts off and stilts all
of the surrounding natures. By this I mean any people, businesses, contracts,
time etc. affected by this bigness. This may be good for some and less good for
others. So, life goes on.
Monkey See
Like the sand
in a stream we are each one made; shaped by effects of time and force upon us.
We drift along accumulating scraps of identity, and then shedding them like lizard
skins. Start to finish, that is a
constant for all persons alike, and so many persons trap have solidly themselves
in not reaching beyond their own expectations. By integrating changes by this
manner, and always with kindness, we accrue certain power that cannot be
harnessed, but is certainly to be used. Used by anyone.
Catch Your Own
Perception
Reduce, integrate,
reconstruct; there is infinite choices of ways to see a given problem. You are
totally in charge of what is big or small in nearly all situations. Please
catch your own perception. If you can allow yourself to change your perception
of variables when the need is apparent the plan comes closer to integration.
You may try to control changes in your own money, your own time, your own
education, your beautiful appearance and self- worth as you move through life
in a way that makes sense to you. It is no good having our life dictated only by
finance, by fate or by luck. Better to choose those things yourself in living
the life you want to.
xix.) Care For
Distraction 7/1/2014 (416) revised
2/16
“I found in myself, and still find, an instinct
toward a higher, or, as it is named, spiritual life, as do most men,
and (also) another
(''instinct') toward a primitive rank and savage one, and I reverence them
both.
I love the
wild not less than the good. The wildness, and adventure that are in fishing
still, recommended it to me. I l like sometimes to take rank hold on life;
and spend my day more as the animals do.”
The man who
goes alone can start today; but he who travels with another must wait till that
other is ready, and it may be a long time before they get off.
There are nowadays
professors of philosophy, but not philosophers. Yet it is admirable to profess;
because it was once admirable to live.
To be a
philosopher is not merely to have subtle thoughts, nor even to found a school,
but so to love wisdom as to live according to its dictates, a life of
simplicity, independence, magnanimity, and trust.”
Henry David Thoreau – Walden
Having recognized that
every word, thought and action we take, ends up a distortion of our own perfect
intention; perhaps we would become immobile and unable to move forward at all,
except for our own tendencies to be easily distracted.
One would not be wrong
to dismiss this; as making too fine a distinction; but on the other hand a
shaman reckons that this is 'key' in aspect
translation into a determined chronological factor. By this I mean to say
that every aspect of life, an object , an idea, perhaps a person, each of these
we interpret as a translation of the information we have perceived and as it
integrates with all that you already know, with regard to that aspect.
Separately but instantly, there attaches a chronological reckoning as each of
these variable factors into a given equation. Whether it is the trigonometric
sequence calculated in every driving experience, or just spending unplanned hours
getting ready to go, it is natural to fall into a groove of each our own
individual perception.
It is not very
important to consciously gauge these chronological factors precisely, only to
be aware that this small distraction exists; exists in everything there is. But
the more your life is clearly defined, and comfortable, these considerations
hold for mere entertainment sake. However artists, outdoorspeople, athletes,
gamers, and anyone who enjoys creativity can play this little distraction into
infinite perspectives.
xx.)
Commerce and industry must be viable without subsidy 7/5/2014 (281) revised 2/16
“I went to the woods
because I wished to live deliberately(;) to confront only the essential facts
of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach (me)(;) and (so) not
when I came to die(;) discover that I had not lived.
I (do) did not wish to live(;) what (is) was not life,
living is so dear; nor (do)did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was
quite necessary. I wanted to live deep, and suck out all the marrow of life, to
live so;sturdily and Spartan-like(;) as to put to rout all that was not
life(;) to cut a broad swath, and shave
close, to drive life into a corner(;) and reduce it to its lowest terms.”
Henry
David Thoreau Walden: Life In the Woods
(1854)
This
following, is a demo of process; in
metaphysics, or a system of expressing innovation in expressing radical ideas
in both written and spoken language as here in this system. To expand this
exercise into extraordinary syntax, or even formal institutional standards
remains as simple labor for anyone conversant in the English language and able
to perform and document everything; nice like.
I often
pose similar problems to my apprentices, usually involving their own interests
and experiences. One easily understands all the aspects depicted below, but
each will interpret by their personal tastes and beliefs, understandings, hopes
etc. Get out your post-its, and expand
or redo. And think about everything, and imagine how even the small things
matter.
 This is one suggestion of possible threads of remedy |
xxi.) as obstacles to
progress; 7/6/2014 (200) revised 2/16
arms trade/ warfare/
environmental neglect/ poverty/ government/ pro façade
file rez
resolution
hi rez seems
to us safer; and to
reach such resolution:
hone in sharp; then
adjust resolution;
clear.
x (times)
your own life experience/perception
=
(equals)
Hello; your socks are attractive;
and we dance;
I knew we are
two
time is always one aspect;
I am comfortable now
inhaling your
kind intention
as(when) you undress.
Don’t be a prick, that is
not kind, please
observe the wake
you have made by your
intentions and activity;
take it out on people who
do trouble you with
tyranny or chew up your
time to pass their own.
but speak truth and
shelter by it; it is a beacon
that some others see or
notice.
It is my practice to routinely
question, and reserve judgment
as I decide to do.
everyone has an illusory
aspect
that we open as a
basket
to contain our tonal;
like
a Bic in a boot.
there
is neither right or
wrong
except when
resulting
in unkind events
and
spirits travel.
all
conflict rises from persons;
this
is where growth
manifests,
as chronologically
randomly
clicks I reckon thus.
07/06/2014
xxii.) Love thy planet/god as thyself 7/18/2014 (404) revised 2/16
“How can a man be satisfied to
entertain an opinion merely, and enjoy it?
Is there any enjoyment in it, if
his opinion is that he is aggrieved?
Action from principle — the
perception and the performance of right — changes things and relations; it is
essentially revolutionary, and does not consist wholly with anything which
was.
It not only divides states and
churches, it divides families; ay, it divides the individual, separating the
diabolical in him from the divine."
Henry David Thoreau -On Civil Disobedience 1849
It is okay to be kind to ourselves. The events in
every person’s life accumulate value as her life goes on, and as these
experiences accrue she changes daily. And just as an elbow in a creek bed catches
and stratifies micro-layers amounting to the metaphysical applications one has
available in a given space of time. Depending upon the point we start to notice
it, soon we are juggling aspects of our life, our responsibilities and as a
result our desires and the ‘likes’ and ‘dislikes’ tend to interchange their
places in fluidly as do our own
perspectives.
I can recognize a good case myself that the planet
earth that we live on is god. As I can see new aspects of the planet every day,
after many years I see them all for the luminous beauty that they each may
have; and that they have all been put here to be considered and to be loved. Our own god/planet,
our own minds, and each our own will, and chronologically we exist, and can
act only now. Now is the exact time
of extraordinary flux in our individual human perception and ability. This is
fine, and as more persons themself awake to this asset that they have, we must each
be mindful that many others, even right around us, are fighting against their
own oppression, their own poverty, and from war and hunger every day on this our
only god/planet. Be mindful also that many advantages we enjoy have us profit
by others who are suffering her own injustices.
Because we each have only this one planet, and our
own one mind; our own single will; the way to change things is by the
individual decisions of one person at a time. Technology now makes this thought
conceivable, maybe even practical, and participation seems worth believing in,
and so I do.
xxiii.) Do unto others as you
want back too. 7/22/2014 (730) revised
2/16
"It is never too
late to give up our prejudices."
Henry David Thoreau
Many things are different from
one another, which helps us in this system to find out out infinity in our
perceptions, and all of the things that come to each ones’ life. Each having
our own individually in fact, makes for many commonalities shared, that on the
surface that maybe we would not expect. I am not certain how much to try to
expound on the importance this variable carries in making this system viable. I have no intention to give further
exposition here about this in abstract form. Instead please take a breath,
follow along with this following clarification of the important aspects of the fine
distinctions underlining all of the notational aspects of our system.
HANblogLAKA *5 Definitions
definiendum: that
which is defined (noted to the left).
definiens: that which it is defined as meaning
(to the right with =)
“p É q . = . ~p v
q Df.”
Three primitive
ideas have been introduced above which are not “defined” but only described. Their
primitiveness is only relative to our expansion of logical connection and is
not absolute; though of course such an exposition gains in importance according
to the simplicity of its primitive ideas.
These ideas are symbolized by “~p” and “p v q”
and by “├” prefixed to a proposition.
Three definitions
have been introduced:
p . q . = . ~(~p v
~ q) Df,
p . É q .= . ~ p v
q Df,
p ≡ q . = . p É q .
q ) p Df.
Primitive
propositions: some propositions must be taken without proof, since all
inference proceeds from propositions previously asserted. These, like the
primitive ideas are to some extent a matter
of arbitrary
choice. Though, as in the previous case, a logical system grows in importance
according as the primitive propositions are few and simple.
It will be found
that owing to the weakness of the imagination in dealing with simple abstract
ideas no very great stress can be laid upon their obviousness. They are obvious
to the instructed mind, but then so are many propositions which cannot be quite
true, as being disproved by their contradictory consequences.
The following are
the primitive propositions employed in the calculus of propositions. The
letters “Pp: stand for “primitive proposition.”
(1) Anything implied by a true premise is
true Pp. This is the rule which
justifies inference.
(2) ├ : p v p . É . p Pp. i.e. if p or p is true, then p is true.
(3) ├ :
q . É . q v p Pp. i.e. if q is true then p or q is true.
(4) ├
: p v q . É . q v p Pp. i.e. if p or q
is true, then q or p is true.
(5)
├ : p v É q v r) . É . q v (p v r)
Pp i.e. if either p is true or “q or r” is true then either q is true or
“p
or r” is true.
(6)
├ :. q É r . É : p v q . É . p É r
Pp’ i.e. if q implies r, then “p or q” implies “p or r.”
(7)
“The axiom of identification of real variables.” When we have separately
asserted two different
functions of x where x is
undetermined it is often important to know whether we can identify the
x in one assertion with the x in the
other. i.e. if φ(x,y,z…) is a
constituent in one assertion, and
φ(x,u,v…) is a constituent in
another.
*3·03, *1·7, and
*1·72 (which is the statement of this axiom).
Some simple
propositions:
The law of the
excluded middle: ├ . p v ~p. (*2·11)
The law of
contradiction: ├ . ~(p . ~p). (*3·24)
The law of double
negation: ├ . p ≡ ~(~p). (*4·13)
The principle of
transposition: this principle has various forms, namely:
(*4·1)
├ : p É q .≡ . ~q É ~p,
(*4·11) ├ : p ≡ q . ≡ . ~p ≡ ~q,
(*4·14) ├ :. p . q . É . r : ≡ : p . ~r
. ) . ~q. as well as other variations of these.
xxiv.)
False Structures of Power (Government
Bought for Money) are Untenable 7/28/2014
(678) revised
2/16
"If
there were one who lived wholly without the use of money, the State itself
would hesitate to demand it of him. But the rich man — not to make any
invidious comparison — is always sold to the institution which makes him rich.
Absolutely speaking, the more money, the less
virtue; for money comes between a man and his objects, and obtains them for
him; and it was certainly no great virtue to obtain it. It puts to rest many
questions which he would otherwise be taxed to answer; while the only new
question which it puts is the hard but superfluous one, how to spend it.
Thus his moral ground is taken from under his
feet. The opportunities of living are diminished in proportion as what are
called the "means" are increased. The best thing a man can do for his
culture when he is rich is to endeavor to carry out those schemes which he
entertained when he was poor.
Christ
answered the Herodians according to their condition. "Show me the
tribute-money," said he; — and one took a penny out of his pocket; — if
you use money which has the image of Cæsar on it, and which he has made current
and valuable, that is, if you are men of the State, and gladly enjoy the
advantages of Cæsar's government, then pay him back some of his own when he
demands it; "Render therefore to Cæsar that which is Cæsar's, and to God
those things which are God's"— leaving them no wiser than before as to
which was which; for they did not wish to know."
Henry David Thoreau On Civil Disobedience 1849
When wealth
accumulates into narrow or personal control by individuals; its origin is thus
dismissed , finished by a deposit into an account. This ledger sheet spell works
for the wealthy, a time machine
Punch and Judy show
it gives amusement along with bitter uneasiness. This finders-keepers ethos
maintained by privilege and blindly swallowed by the authors of this booty
bought shrewdly by the hour with the wealth acquired by their own labor. The
work she is paid for on Friday still goes on off to grow and multiply through
other hands and sold in other places and in other forms all created for a
paycheck but for which we hold no claim.
These false
structures of power, held the in random hands of persons who either built up or
inherited tremendous wealth. Inequitable surely so, but perhaps tolerable; until hubris leads these
persons to attempt to inflict their screwy ideas and social philosophy by
grasping onto all they can, by the widespread purchase of political influence.
The whole trick is
to maintain the assumption that everything is as it should be in terms of the
overall local, national and international distribution of wealth and privilege
among people, based on thousands of years of inequity, and the brutal force
that keeps so many toiling without a chance to live a better life. We are held back by the lame assumption that
the past binds us and prevents a future of improved prospects for all.
It is difficult to
approach this dilemma without attributing such attitudes and their results the
work of bad guys or to some deranged political scheme to manipulate the system to
only change the faces of the current wealthy powers that be into crop another
crop of the same creatures. I want to be clear in observing here that this is
hardly a conspiracy as such, but more, natural opportunism. It would be
assigning much more ability and intelligence to these persons than I believe
they can possibly possess.
We are living today
under the remnant of our history of exploitation of one another. We can see in
our culture that long standing inequities are slowly falling away, at least in
the United States. This has happened not by legislation or law enforcement, but
only by the essential efforts and dedication of ordinary people like me and
you.
xxv.) Time Does Not Exist. Only
Clocks 7/31/2014 (499) revised
2/15
"Have no mean hours, but be grateful
for every hour, and accept what it brings. The reality will make
any sincere record respectable. No day will
have been wholly misspent, if one sincere, thoughtful page
has been written. Let the daily tide leave
some deposit on these pages, as it leaves sand and shells on
the shore. So much increase of terra firma.
this may be a calendar of the ebbs and flows of the soul;
and on these sheets as a beach, the waves
may cast up pearls and seaweed. "
Henry David Thoreau July 6, 1840
Time is slippery. As anyone who has spent a
wonderful afternoon socializing with loved ones, in contrast with one who has
endured travel on a loud and crowded commercial airline flight. Dig, that all
time is not equal. This is always measured by each individuals’ own perceptions.
Two people strolling in the park together may each have very different
experiences that are affected by time; related to their differing perceptions,
feeling different emotions, perhaps caused by changes in differing physical
symptoms and by each our own intellectual interpretations of events. If
examined carefully, these will be found to represent individual and specific differences
of perception. All of these aspects and many others may be seen to manifest as
what I describe as, stretching and
contracting time.
Time may be thought of as a natural, human sense.
Analogous of having a nose to experience smells; our whole being, in each our
physiology from birth to our demise we perceive, and deploy time, in effect we
are each time-‘organs.’’ I reckon it is true to suppose that every person
spends her time in the best way she is able to, but generally in our culture
time is fractured, refracted, clicked off in a tally by clocks of all
description, but the true utility of time is that it is part of, and available
to all, if we only knew it.
Because we mainly sell off the bulk of our time to a
boss, for money, and that money earned thus must then provide us acquire, have,
and accomplish all only with paychecks blessing alone. We then
naturally feel obliged to battle for both our money and our own time, because
we ‘need’ to make an equation work, that can be supposed to support us, and all
our responsibilities.
This bit of bitter insight, as each of my described variables, make this system equation
medicinal in practice. I must stress plainly that I do not offer this work to the reader as fact, discovery, true
assertions, or bogus hoax. My intent is to present with system an
accessible metaphysic equation; exploring diverse ways to understand, think
about and discuss with another the troubling aspects prevailing, and perhaps
even caused by our dominant culture existing here in North America.
You must be able to hold onto 41 ideas into a single
consideration; to ride this ride
xxvi.) Entering a new economic
cognizance is transformative 8/9/2014 (383)
revised 2/16
"Public opinion is a weak tyrant
compared with our own private opinion. What a man thinks of
himself, that it is which determines, or
rather indicates, his fate.
As if you could kill time without
injuring eternity."
Henry David Thoreau Walden (1854)
By transformative, in this variable, I mean to
indicate economic diffusion that equals
out without prescribed taking;
or decrease of the anyone’s economic time, money, or property assets. Here we
are with each our own piece-worked conception of puzzling how we may think or
hope the nations’ money supply is managed today. Along with the object of
changing the world view of money, capital and
our separation by it (money) from infinite aspects of objects, commodities
and human beings, presently thought of as the sole provider of human
redemption. I reckon that the whole continent may be transformed and only with
human, neighborly adjustment of ambiguous reality. And change cannot mean
‘take.’ Persons must be each on the balance, so that giving does not mean
losing.
Money is the lynchpin of our system of rewarding
labor, production, and risk. Cash in bills and coins are only a narrow slice of
economic activity. Most ‘money’ remains data stored away; money put out at
interest, compounding. This ambiguous state of existence money takes on, is
affected and is even controlled by chronological aspects in the Nth
individual's accounts with as many planned activities’ outcomes. There is no
way possible to change anything peacefully of in justice by taking money away
from people who have it. However it is certainly in each ones power to change
her perception, and just this enables changing many things around us
peacefully.
Something new and transformative is coming down the
road and not too far off. Today we insist on looking straight at the faces of
atrocity in more close and immediate fashion than in times past, and the world
is putting on its typical side shows, with the usual suspects. You are the
fountainhead yourself; your own potential to rearrange the ideas you have of
life’s living into a better place, and by a way that suits you better and that
balances when everyone can float together out of the status quo and imagining a
sweeping change.
xxvii.) Bound by
misunderstanding money and time 8/11/2014 (484) revised
2/16
"The night in
prison was novel and interesting enough... It was like traveling into a far
country, such as I had never expected to behold, to lie there for one night. It
seemed to me that I never had heard the town-clock strike before, nor the
evening sounds of the village; for we slept with the windows open, which were
inside the grating. It was to see my native village in the light of the Middle
Ages, and our Concord was turned into a Rhine stream, and visions of knights
and castles passed before me. They were the voices of old burghers that I heard
in the streets. I was an involuntary spectator and auditor of whatever was done
and said in the kitchen of the adjacent village-inn — a wholly new and rare
experience to me. It was a closer view of my native town. I was fairly inside
of it. I never had seen its institutions before. This is one of its peculiar
institutions; for it is a shire town. I began to comprehend what its
inhabitants were about. "
Henry David
Thoreau On Civil Disobedience (1849)
I have long known friends who are juggling a life of
job and school, and all the time trying their best to stretch themselves in
pursuing their artwork, music, relationships, faith, family and
profession. The complexities inherent in
these simple aspects of a life are worth at least acknowledging. By taking life
for granted we have abandoned our own time, never to have it back. We model ourselves
after our family and teachers, movie actors and rock stars; but unless we shed
these false idioms that serve us as props eventually, we are obstructed and
only in gaining our own experiences can each person eventually achieve the feat
of being human.
So interesting that we are each born fully human,
then by the acts and attentions of everyone we meet and everything we learn,
our nagual is squeezed practically out of existence by the labels, rules and
principles constituting our tonal; these contain merely everything we have
learned so far in our lifetime, and that our humanity desperately longs to
escape from.
By each one’s own constant, continual containment
that each of us is wrapped into by layer after layer of our tonal, we can no
longer see the world, but live life only by its descriptions. Find your own
path, and use money to bring you time; that is a happy transaction. Don’t
imagine I am advising you to quit your job and chase a dream. The change I am
prescribing is completely inside your own mind. I don’t suggest that you ‘do’ something; rather I am telling you
that you can see and perceive and think
for yourself. Understanding will come along naturally with these, provided that
you have not previously nailed it down somewhere else.
xxviii.) Person
Migration, Shipment of Goods and Educational Propagation 8/14/2014
(396) revised
2/15
"In the long run men hit only what they
aim at. Therefore, though they should fail immediately, they
had better aim at something high."
Henry David
Thoreau Waldon (1854)
To fix long standing problems that are festering
without apparent cure, it is useful to broaden the scope of our perception of
what the problem really is; and so thus where it came from in the first place.
These villainous equations of ‘max profit,’ individual greed and deceit,
ancestral hatred, bogus ‘educators’ and other deadly sins are perfectly clear
and well documented, but the gigantic overlap of interests that exist, are
chiefly only legacies of past hatreds and injustices, begotten by the worship
of money. At that these are all chiefly too, the result of well-meant but
ill-considered legislation by politicians unfit for their office by their tiny
capacity to understand the consequences resulting from the votes they have sold
themself to their masters ($$$) for to
cast in their narrow interests.
The task of working out solutions to these, and all
other societal sufferings, will never be legislated or accomplished by
committee, much less by armies, border walls, concentration camps, terror, or
weapons of mass destruction. When one sets out to unravel the knotty tapestry
of greed, fear and injustice this world has come too, the very things that seem to make our lives possible;
money, jobs, school, state, prisons, segregation from ‘the others’, etc. are so
attached to us by our tonal that we never
even think to question them in any serious way. Professors in universities
and pundits in the media suggest endless schemes to rearrange the existing pieces
on the board, pointedly never claiming they will solve anything; but only
shuffling around who gets rich, and who is left in the dust.
The roots of all these problems appear to me to be
very much linguistic, and so metaphysical. When politicians try to address any
societal problem using, for instance plural pronouns, they are thus defeated
from the start. We lose sight in the confusion that all problems at last are
personal, no matter how many other ones are seemingly affected in similar or
even identical fashion. The simple change
from thinking of ‘people’ to thinking of ‘persons,’ in our calculus, cannot
help but alter the course of all stemming thought. (amen).
xxix.) Distortion = good/bad over useful 8/19/2014 (277)
revised 2/16
This point is so important to my own understanding
of the world that it comes up in in relation to everything. Distortion caused
by our own past perceptions color the new things that we encounter every day.
It is natural for intentions to skew our perception towards our fond intent.
Those distortions are necessary in fact to actually attain our intentions.
Because we take language for granted and so speak and listen both in a sloppy
way we become ever distant from new people me meet, and so become ever further
from our own ability to express ourselves and our ideas to them or likewise
understand them in between.
Too much top end, and the recording begins
distorting. A wah-wah petal worked by a tasty player just as she likes is
wonderful to hear. We make allowance for
distortion; in conversation we always do our best, but always what we say
deviates to some extent from our exact thought.
Talk is slippery, just so you notice. If we try to make allowance for
this distortion in language listening to the speech of others we are better
able to discover their meanings. Understanding this helps quiet objections to
what she at first seemed to be saying.
The little bit of grace that we grant to one
another, is the building block to resolving misunderstandings, even conflicts.
It must always be individual and intentional. That seems like a very small
thing; but I assert that fleeting pauses allowing grace can ripple around the
world. We all suffer in our own fashion. Conflict, hatred, fear, thirst for
revenge for past suffering that is not defused safely may fester and cause
great injustice and devastating heartbreak to all.
xxx.) Resources are the moving parts of the economy 8/25/2014 (685)
"Most
men, even in this comparatively free country, through mere ignorance and
mistake, are so
occupied with the factitious cares and
superfluously coarse labors of life that its finer fruits cannot be
plucked by them. Their fingers, from
excessive toil, are too clumsy and tremble too much for that.
Actually, the laboring man has not leisure
for a true integrity day by day; he cannot afford to sustain
the manliest relations to men; his labor
would be [thus]depreciated in the market. He has no time to
be anything but a machine. How can he
remember well his ignorance- which his growth requires- who
has so often to use his knowledge? We
should feed and clothe him gratuitously sometimes, and
recruit him with our cordials, before we
judge of him. The finest qualities of our nature, like the bloom
on fruits, can be preserved only by the
most delicate handling. Yet we do not treat ourselves nor one
another thus tenderly."
Henry David
Thoreau
Until the origins and the nature of our own national
economy is recognized, understood to be inseparably global, encompassing every
person everywhere equally. Clearly then, any thought about, or perception of an
isolated national economy or economic union is a recipe for disaster. We grind
up all economic activity into mere dollar signs in musty ledgers and media
programed stock market crawls. Each one of our tonal is bound in these; and we feel imprisoned. And at last we
are defeated, as all the labels we have attached to everything contain us. Peeking
wistfully out at freedom, seeming just out of reach we tell ourselves we must
accept that this must be all that can possibly be. But inside of every one of
us, our nagual claws with a nagging incomplete feeling of loneliness that to
some extent, we all have a feeling that something is terribly wrong with our
culture or maybe the whole world, and that the deck is stacked to cause us to
believe, as Voltaire’s young protagonist Candide
does, that this is indeed the best of all
possible worlds. Now what is needed is for each to be the best possible
individual person that they are able to be, and absolutely persons are at last the most valuable parts of every economy.
Commodities, raw materials, manufactured products,
information, books, artwork, and everything that holds a value in itself are at
once private and also public objects. Add to that transportation services, food
preparation work, medical, tonsorial, auctions, insurance and everything
persons make and trade away that is real in life; is then reduced to figures in
columns on countless ledgers. To our sorrow we seem to forget that a carrot is
not a number, and a haircut is not a tally of figures, even though they are generally
accounted to be.
Such miss-perceptions have evolved over centuries
and for good enough reasons; political, diplomatic, logistical, technical,
military, and criminal. All of these blurred distinctions reality offers to us
as alternatives to our present win/ lose dichotomy of living together here now
on the planet we share. When we individual persons decide to shake off historic
oppressions, the grudge hatreds, and inflicted sufferings; and stand straight
and tall together without fear of want; the trick will be turned! But as we
change ourself one by one.
Our planet yet contains abundant resources; but
political expedience has brought us now to a tangled web of past errors in
judgment; perpetuated by those whose interests are richly served by those same old
errors. Are you conditioned by our culture to want? To want riches, want
security, want an education, want peace and want love??? Clearly we need all of
these, and they can be had by every
person in the world in an economical fashion, but that can never be quite
possible, monetarily. That last is quite impossible, in fact. Only when you
seek that equality in your own equation, seeking by your own nagual, even if
now it rests reduced in you to only the soles of your feet.
xxxi.) The deadweight
of government can just fall away 8/28/2014 (228) revised
2/15
The reason world
societal problems seem unchangeable is chiefly because we think that there are
no agreeable, or workable alternatives. We take an odd comfort in looking to
government officials and their irrational laws to make the hard decisions to
protect ourselves by keeping those other less reliably law abiding citizens in
line. It is strange that we do not own those problems ourself so to work to
actually solve them ourselves. Why not begin to dismantle the crooked structures
that defeat our freedom, and we have earned by voting along carelessly for
their Congressional malfeasance? Congress has demonstrated definitively in this
Century that they are of no value to us, and completely superfluous to our
well-being. Additionally the economic
benefit of Congressional demise felt nationally is surprisingly great in every
respect, not a single person would not benefit greatly by this event.
The bond of
co-existence is well understood by all persons in the United States; and that
is generally only disregarded for specific, personal desires and reasons,
chiefly caused by a past, and the present clumsy, inefficient and dishonest
juggernaut of injustice attached to and flowing constantly from our archaic
form of government. This can truly disappear, and practically overnight, if we
each one of us declare our intent that this shall be the case.
xxxii.) Individual
Attainment (unwitting) 8/31/58 (280) revised 2/16
"One cannot too soon forget his errors and misdemeanors. To dwell
long upon them is to add to the
offense. Repentance and sorrow can only be
displaced by something better, which is as free and
original as if they had not
been."
Henry David Thoreau
January 9, 1842
Each one of us has a
mind, a will and a brain in common, and so every one has options that we may choose
among to make us each our life as well as may be for them and their loved ones.
It is not useful to predict how any persons' path may turn and change as time
passes them. Only that the intentions bolstered within each person by learning,
and life experience may determine that for any individual. At last the talents
and abilities we attain, combined with the desires and actions we undertake in
that attainment, sprout in each wonderful perception of each one her own
nagual.
We each one must labor
and find our own way to survive and be happy as best we may. Each variable
included in this metaphysic equation relates a step many others before this
author have taken on their own path, and just as this is my own expression, I
hope that each reader has her own too. The solution to all the worlds'
challenges is a little bit in each of us, and so much more in the young ones
who come after, but also do not give up on the elders who long for it but have
had no way to even think about it, because life’s injustices have pressed them
down so hard for so hard.
P T S Dharma 12/8/2014 (554) revised 2/17
In combat we are rapacious in our drive to survive it, and our comrades
in arms are our womb of safety to make our passage, and to allow a discharge of
each one’s own duty and then return as a unit to a distantly recalled life that
we each decided to leave behind to honorably, and each one with all her heart devoted
to defend. Post trauma stress disorder is a sweet, crazy description of a need that others have to describe us as we seem in common; but it
is up to us, only up to each one at last to disarm, one by one, the traps her
right defenses that have left in her after they no longer serve. Because these
defenses are completely individual, but yet at last had served each warrior,
and to the same desired goal, moment to moment, day to day survival, for as
long as it is needed; it is natural that these individual differences lead
those we return to, to believe that as the sufferings we experience appear so
similar that a label p.t.s.d. has palliative effect and meaning for them, but
in fact the ones who have served and who are labeled thus may be thus deprived
of the device of learning at last that the problem is truly only individual,
and personal to each one. And can only be overcome from this perspective and in
time.
A warrior who served in the military is trained to function and to endure
to the maximum extent of her training, I suppose. The process of assimilating
your various components of training is in fact medicinal; to ones’ mind, and
shall we say your ‘spirit.’ This goes
far to account for the countless service men and women and veterans who daily
demonstrate excellent and honorable military service, and then enter our
communities at home to sink or swim as they are able.
When we are young and are powerful; and wanting to defend our country
and protect our heritage; or just get out of Dodge, it is an age old impulse to
step up to duty as we see it. But war, politics and carnage today is at last so
immediate and visibly ghastly, not just as our own private hell to be suffered
in silence as so many have in past wars and conflicts, but today laid out
graphically everywhere, and knowing that loved ones at home are that way
affected adds weight to the pack each warrior carries in and then home from
battle. When we reach out beyond our past limitations the results can have
great but sometimes horrible, unintended effect by the consequences that may
explode at the whim of fate or a moments’ inattention to duty. We focus on our
nation’s interests, our company’s interests and our own in turns, as humans do.
In general we are reaching out to the unknown, trusting it holds fortune, and
demanding in return all we feel we are due.
In harms ‘way we build up our own individual and constant defensive
equations, that we believe best protect us; and that must shift to fit each
need, or each occasion of danger. Maintaining this condition, even over only
weeks or months can cause us actual physical changes in our human brain. Of
course I do not claim to be current in all technical neurological research, but
by observation, and confirmed perhaps by your own life’s experience, this is
indicated and sometimes very evident. In fact it strongly resembles in its non-physical,
non-medical indications arrived at similarly to my own bipolar diagnosis; which
tells me that both P T S D and bipolar disorder diagnoses only describe broad symptoms
that have been observed in we people who may share similar symptoms but that
arrived in each one from unique and different causes. Each one of us have
developed important capacities and processes that, under threat became , or
seemed to be vital to our survival, but then as circumstances changed, made
more static, and perhaps safer, and so are no longer serve us. Alas, now that
we are ‘safe’ these defenses that have been hardwired into us do not just fade
away.
part one of four
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P T S D: Lost in the bi-cognizance 12/14/2014 (425) revised 2/17
In dominant society where I exist day to day; me and
it operate in a bi-cognitive parallel that, for this discussion I will term
‘polite.’ In contrast however; my own
cognitive system is unique and the object of a lifetimes crafting. My aim in every action and word is
impeccability; that means simply that I take responsibility for my own words
and actions, even the smallest thing.
It flows from this that I consider my world closely
and from infinite perspectives; and the words I speak or write are the result
of this process, and is always only the thing that I feel must be said, and
that thing is stated plainly. This is of course the very opposite of being
polite; but has the two-fold advantage of saying my point clearly (but in fact
the other may not be so clear on my intention), and also doing it in the
smallest possible part of time (so often the time I meant to be saved is lost
by that anyway).
As a result nearly everyone I have encountered in
dominant culture gladly trades the time they spend in polite fashion in hopes
of a little civility for themselves and some peace, but in my own experience
with polite process the communication soon shifts at last into old and worn
channels of capitulation and hurt feelings anyway. I saw that my G.I. father
make his own path in going along with my mother’s wishes, and that he perceived
of that as his sole refuge, and really his best hope to maximize his chances of
having some peace and quiet.
This perception I developed growing up is always the
first pin prick of my own p t s d that equates a loving family as taking on my own
ball and chain; and that always a given every time I look into a woman’s eyes.
But now, looking back I’m not sure this should have been so important to my
decision to exclude certain women from my consideration, especially when they
had signaled an interest. As another layered defense I despise signals and
signs in this context, although I understand they are polite. But perversely It
is of the backwards nature of me that I do not allow myself to see these honest
signs, leading me over and over, always to social disaster. Thus today I remain
unencumbered by a wife, and close friends, but free to remain without their
charms, comforting attention or human touch.
There
and Back, to and from P T S D 12/15/2014 (787)
revised 2/17
The only way I can live my life as I have done is by
the supposition that I am invisible, and thus suppose that, when I leave ones
presence she forgets that I was ever there, and practically immediately too.
Also I simply accept anything she tells me at face value, shrugging off any
ambiguity. Of course this one started out as wishful thinking and evolved into
what, in dominant culture is seen as a sort of psychosis, and with reason. Looking
back I can now understand that I will never ever, hook up with anyone in believing
just so the things they tell me tell with words.
My perception of polite rejoinders is that they always
constitute a clear disjunction, and so that I feel deeply that I am ill advised
to consider them at all, or at least without a real understanding of the
speaker. This because whether they prove to be either right or else prove in
error, my decision in either case can be, at best uncertain. This view of all
disjunctions is vital it me in my technical, logical, philosophical and
artistic fields of study, because one cannot build reliable equations on
untested hypotheses, for down the line these may collapse due to having been
built on an unstable foundation. So when I do not trouble to distinguish my own
mental obsession for keeping clean data, to be useless, and a very unstable
basis for building a romantic, or any other human relationship. This is because
I remain suspicious of all persons in dominant culture and for that mere fact, because
I can see that those persons have each their own fractured and conflicting
intentions from infinite sufferings. This is the reason I always speak plainly,
and wish that others could grant me their temerity, to answer me thus, if only
for the sake of brevity. I do not overlook the dumbass nature of this
paragraph, because of course we are each at our core, all suffering very similarly.
Still some persons are going one way on the money path, while others choose the
warpath backward to that former time when money was unknown on the North
American continent.
There are numerous pin-prick stress sticks that I
feel in me frequently, to change my attention each time I catch a woman’s eye
and she returns my tiny smile. They make me turn and walk away and prevent a
relationship from arising with each woman that I have met thus in my past
monastic role. In two decades service I have encouraged and heard so many young
women each recapitulate to me all the sufferings of her life, and that in turn drove
each one of them to be at that terrible unhappy place that I met them, out on
the night streets. They spoke to me when they saw I would hear them, and I
heard that nearly all were suffering from a painful and undeserved betrayal,
and numbingly so often the abuse they received was from their own Father, or
another man who should have loved her instead, and listened to her, and treated
her better. Rightly or foolishly I decided way back to become just one man in
each one’s life that loved and respected her; and that, without fucking her in the
bargain, because I saw that if a girl cannot ever trust a man, she is defeated
by that, all through her future adult life. I don’t know whether or not I was
in error with this thought; but it felt right to me then, and many girls down
the years looked me up as referrals.
It is these gestures of helping others that have at
last rewarded me with reaching the intellectual goals of spirit that may come
to a man who steps on the path that I have chosen. Perhaps I can define that as
‘learning everything I can about every subject as I encounter it,’ and surely
that has come to define me. By this means I arrive at the unknown aspects of
life ready to see them reveled, and with hope of piercing their meaning and
adding them to my arsenal equation of the world I live uneasily in. From childhood I have understood that the
things that I could only feel viscerally, and that I always went with and did
for a real, if usually inexplicable purpose, were against the flow of the
intentions and purposes of everyone around me.
Sadly I gave way at some point, but the more I fell into conventional
channels to gain acceptance in social situations and financial success, the
more disoriented and unhappy I became.
Neither Either if you please okay? 12/15/2014 (800) revised 2/18
The form I have chosen to address this dharma has struck
some as odd, and perhaps that is true. Look at the most telling symptom that so
many share in common post trauma, is the inability to give and to receive love or
to trust ourself and/or trust our lover. It is valuable to make connections to
our own suffering by seeing another person’s seemingly disconnected complaints and
learn to recognize solutions useful to heal ourself. There is so much more to
learn and express about this subject, and few subjects are more important to
the healing of us all from the actions taken resulting from the very poor
capacity our elected leaders have shown in troubled times. Those who served us
in military adventures overseas, suffer neither more or less share debilitating
symptoms, as those who have suffered traumatic violence or sexual assault at
home, or away from home too, from infinite causes oblique suffering and
debilitating ennui from countless individual symptoms they suffer in common, thus
is equally so in every nation, from the after effects of the traumas each one
has endured. That does not dissipate without time, effort and continued
personal consideration and attention to each one our own healing.
The more I come to care for a woman the greater become
a terror that wells up in me. Not fear of love, or of commitment, or losing my
freedom; no, nothing of that nature, for I am beyond being hurt in that way by
any other person. Rejection burns me painfully in the moment, I admit that is
true, but that is over in a moment, and my life as given me tools to process
and release negative feeling quickly so that they do not long linger. Seeing
this is not the case for many others, this does I realize, stop me from
perfectly proper social initiatives towards young woman of interest to me. I am
fifty something years old and never married, and though there is nothing
stopping me from asking any woman for a ‘date,’ as we called them in the day,
still I feel a reluctance to apear absurd and that to me is more difficult than
rejection. I also am concerned about how my own nature may affect and distress
her, for as Motley Crue describes it: I’m a ‘live wire.’ I am liable to go off
in infinite directions at the slighted incentive my artwork leads me. This
aspect is important to see as distinct from obsession; for trauma brings one to
an altered state that cam change and perhaps redirect a person’s focus away
from the world of dominant cultural social norms infinitely into any direction.
The distinction between the two is just this, obsession is intentionally pursued
for a purpose like money or power or control or sexual, or any other desires;
while infinity is directed by spirit and followed outside of the norm only for
the hell of it.
Don’t think that only
military warriors suffer from their personal p t s d. Each person’s own points
of recurring points affected by trauma, and those defenses persist in her own day
to day life. Just as my own monastic vows cannot be swept away by a simple
decision that they no longer serve me any longer; so much worse and more
difficult it may become to face the defenses inside each service man and woman in harm’s way, when time comes go back home
after a long continued service in perilous duty . Remember that those described
traumatic aspects were very likely instrumental in each person’s survival in
combat. Understanding this point alone is a key to each person finding her own way
back to a ‘normal’ life at last. I have struggled with my own problems,
twisting, testing whatever I can think of changing myself; for a full year now
as I have blogged about them and my struggle, painfully, honestly, and maybe even
numbingly, for my work has no value otherwise. The solutions are never cut and
dried, no two persons suffering are exactly alike and so even knowing what
hurts does not effect a cure right away. Please believe that if you can isolate
what the heck they are, I am confident any one’s own symptomology described as p
t s d, may be overcome at last if we do not give up on ourself or forsake our
loved ones by removing our self from them. This seems to relieve the worst
immediate causes we suffer from those clear sore spots that one feels; but we
step into an array of worse problems that will never recede from us until we
take a stand, and battle now for our. own life.
part four of four
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